Life style

Within and Without

The new common language will be more simple and regular than the existing European languages. It will be as simple as Occidental; in fact, it will be Occidental. To an English person, it will seem like simplified English, as a skeptical Cambridge friend of mine told me what Occidental is. The European languages are members of the same family. Their separate existence is a myth. For science, music, sport, etc, Europe uses the same vocabulary. The languages only differ in their grammar, their pronunciation and their most common words. Everyone realizes why a new common language would be desirable: one could refuse to pay expensive translators. To achieve this, it would be necessary to have uniform grammar, pronunciation and more common words.

If several languages coalesce, the grammar of the resulting language is more simple and regular than that of the individual languages. The new common language will be more simple and regular than the existing European languages. It will be as simple as Occidental; in fact, it will be Occidental.

To an English person, it will seem like simplified English, as a skeptical Cambridge friend of mine told me what Occidental is. The European languages are members of the same family. Their separate existence is a myth. For science, music, sport, etc, Europe uses the same vocabulary. The languages only differ in their grammar, their pronunciation and their most common words. Everyone realizes why a new common language would be desirable: one could refuse to pay expensive translators. To achieve this, it would be necessary to have uniform grammar, pronunciation and more common words. If several languages coalesce, the grammar of the resultin

I’ve always prided myself on a routine and do not like to be idle, so I tend to fill up my life with activities. I mean, I’m not rigid and have every hour planned but I tend to know what I’m doing each day and moment. Whatever idle time I have is spent on Duolingo and playing Farm heroes and not on social media, like my family insinuates *intense eye roll here*. Left to me, it seemed like a healthy lifestyle so imagine my surprise when at my appointment last week, my therapist says to me that my life is filled with external activities but nothing that involves internal introspection. *scoff*

Who? Me? Impossible. She then decides to put me on an assignment to stay idle everyday for 30 minutes so I can develop a relationship with myself. Of course denial sets in. I have a mighty fine relationship with myself. She then takes a long look at me and says I’m not present, I’m within and without. -_-

I walk out of therapy that day, questioning if I’m all there emotionally and wondering if maybe I’ve somehow fallen into depression without really noticing. Of course, I go back to filling my life with activities till I find myself on her couch again today for a six month’s review. Unfortunately my emotions are just not cooperating today. I am indeed within and without and then she asks me what I look forward to everyday, to which I realize the answer is nothing. Now, my alarms are going off in my head because when did this happen? Then all too suddenly, I feel a wave of sadness and it feels like when you’ve been doing alright till the doctor tells you they found something in your body and then your body starts to break down. Why is it always that way? Would your body have broken down had the doctor not pronounced their discovery?

So I tell myself I’m going to quit therapy because what’s all this but who does that really hurt in the end?

We try an exercise to master my emotions by going through a chart that shows where your body feels emotions, as seen below. Unfortunately for me, we then discover that i’m primarily in neutral, which sets her clinical psychology alarms off.

I walk out of therapy that day, questioning if I’m all there emotionally and wondering if maybe I’ve somehow fallen into depression without really noticing. Of course, I go back to filling my life with activities till I find myself on her couch again today for a six month’s review. Unfortunately my emotions are just not cooperating today. I am indeed within and without and then she asks me what I look forward to everyday, to which I realize the answer is nothing. Now, my alarms are going off in my head because when did this happen? Then all too suddenly, I feel a wave of sadness and it feels like when you’ve been doing alright till the doctor tells you they found something in your body and then your body starts to break down. Why is it always that way? Would your body have broken down had the doctor not pronounced their discovery?

So I tell myself I’m going to quit therapy because what’s all this but who does that really hurt in the end?

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